prettiness

Pretty.. may be everyday we watch, hear or listen the commercials tell how to be prettier. Some people try to look prettier, whether using whitening cream, having plastic surgery, etc. Have we ever questioning the notion of pretty? The idea of pretty in somehow is imposed by the capitalism, like in my country prettiness is having straight long hair, fair skin, and thin. Yesterday I came across to pretty damn amazing speech about prettiness.

It reminds me with a quote by Gloria Steinem: "If you and I, everytime we pass a mirror downgrade how we look or complain about our looks, if we remember that a girl is watching us and that's what she's learning". Regards to the idea of prettiness, its a daily battle. I could not agree more with it.

I will never love you more

Accidentally I come across to that video on YouTube. It's has cute lyric rite? I never love you more than, by Soko, a French singer. This is the lyric:

I will never love you more than the drummer of Flaming LipsI will never love you more than Woody Allen moviesI will never love you more than the White album of the BeatlesI will never love you more than God only knows
I will never love you more than DVDs night with my girlfriendWhen we talk about stupid things like feelings and menI will never love you more than my boyfriend when I was 14Even if he's now an asshole, I will never love you more
And you say, you love me more than everythingAnd compared to me everything is nothing
I will never love you more than meeting Paul McCartneyAnd we asked him to play a song on my UkuleleI will never love you more than my Scandinavian tourWhich was more than paradise, I wish you remember it too
I will never love you more than dancing to Phil SpektorI will never love you more than my Casiotone keyboardI will never love you more than Daniel Johnston himselfFor me he's more than God, I will never love you more
And you say, you love me more than everythingAnd compared to me everything is nothing
Ohh this is sweet, I just wonder what it means
You say you love me more, than all the girls you've had beforeEven more than music, even more than yourselfEven more than everythingBut it's just a lieSo I will never love you more, than anything
I will never love you more than singing in the showerI will never love you more than my Mac computerI will never love you more than having a daughterI will never love you more than peanut butter
I will never love you more than kisses all dayI will never love you more than cuddles all nightI will never love you more than kissing girls lips when they're really pretty 
I will never love you moreI will never love you more

And yeah, I will never love you more than chocolate
I will never love you more than ice cream
I will never love you more than durian

ough.. why my lyric is full of food? 
Maybe that's true, when I love someone, I will never love him more than ...
Then I wouldn't get hurt, I wouldn't sacrifice myself. 

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Gotcha..
May be now I know what I really want and what I really need. Even though it's painful but, that's life rite? We suffer and we learn. I can't dream a beautiful life which I can get everything I want, coz it is impossible.
I'll try as best I can, since I don't have anything remain in my life.
May be too late for me to change, but it's not too late to be the better me. I hope it's not too late as well to be happy and love myself more.
may be I'm too naive, that's what some people always say to me. Now I understand what they said so. I try to be positive to other, but I can't do it in my case.
Damn, life is so hard; sometimes I feel I can't continue.. but of course I can, I have You. You'll be there for me as always and always accept me for whatever I am.
hmm.. let this post as garbage.. I just need to express what I'm feeling right now.
nite..